Dairy of the Mad 3:Breaking Vision

Confusion is when you are stuck in place. Where you can't fathom an answer. I am in a state of immortals confusion. Stuck inbetween what I feel and what I feel. A part of me wants the love and passion of those I'm attracted while another wants a companion that we so do truly love till our heart contents and radiates and burst like blimps but theirs not attraction not even a sexual glance. Why must I be torn and entwined my death be my aid and help me be blind help me lose touch help me lose my mind slip into the darkness never to again arise to see the day of light so swift and yet is bright lights that damn my sight to choose to make me happy or be what others want so they can see me again in their eyes.